anx·i·e·ty1.

  [ang-zahy-i-tee]  Show IPA

noun, plural anx·i·e·ties.

distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune.

I think that sums up how I'm feeling at the moment.  I'm anxious about failing, I'm anxious about keeping food off of my mind (which of course, only brings it to the forefront), I'm anxious that because of that my mind wanders to comfort foods. Can I resist temptation? What happens if I slip up? What if I indulge too often? The cycle simply repeats itself.

I can not let it get to me. I WILL not let it control me.  I  have no intention to remove those comfort foods from my diet, but instead, I strive to control them.  Portions, and servings.. I simply need to moderate how much and how often.

Breathe.. just breathe.

Another friend of mine, C.L., re-introduced me to a website that I used to use way back in the day (well, the one I used was differently named, but I swear it's the exact same model).  I actually had quite a bit of success with it, and I hope that this blog, combined with the food tracker of myfitnesspal, I'll be able to successfully control my eating habits to the point where I will not need to consciously be thinking about them.


If what you are eating is not there, it can be a little tedious to enter the nutritional information, but it gives a great overview of what is in what you're eating.. very helpful for motivation, and sometimes deterrent.  It has positive reinforcement in the form of encouraging/positive posts about your activity, forums and support groups, and a wealth of knowledge that I hope will be helpful.  While the focus of the site seems to be primarily losing weight, it is a tool that I think may just be my secret weapon.  Feel free to request to add/follow me if you are on the site. My username is Inrequia.


As I write this, my anxiety is subsiding.. I forgot how therapeutic writing can be. It's a very good feeling.  Cheers to day 2.