I've been pretty involved with this whole lifestyle change.. and rightfully so, I think.  However, I'm beginning to feel a little bit of guilt about my ever growing "To Do" list.  Since I seem to have some solid ground work for these new habits I'm beginning to form, and my energy is increasing, I think it's time to start tackling it.

Now, a lot of things on this list may seem superficial or totally irrelevant to some people... quite a number of them have to do with a video game I play.  HOWEVER, I will not allow others to judge me based on this.  This other world is my escape; it's got some of my very best friends and is a place where I can complete immerse myself and express myself creatively.  I love it, and I shall nurture it over the next few days.

Though I have been throwing myself into work, the list there is ever growing as well.  I seem to have finally found a happy balance with those things.. while I am more than happy to work my fingers to the bone to get ahead and do what needs to be done, once I cross the line of "too much" the work I do is not of the same quality, and I sometimes have to repeat it.  Learning to say no was a hard lesson for me, and learning to allow myself to rest is another thing I need to tackle.

I looked up some lunch ideas and recipes.. and decided that I need some hummus.  In fact, I want to learn how to make hummus. When I'm finished this blog, I'm going to go make myself a buffalo chicken wrap for my lunch tomorrow. Just thinking about it makes me want one now - ugh.

I think I had too much protein today.  I mean, I feel fine, but I had yogurt, two eggs, hemp seeds, and chicken. Too much? Maybe. I found that I was wanting to eat a little more than I have been lately (not just the desire to eat out of habit, but actual hunger) but I think it's because I got a lot of exercise today.. or perhaps my metabolism is finally catching up to what I'm doing.

Today was a weigh in day, and I can proudly say that I have dropped almost 4 pounds since last time I reported.  I've also lost 2cm each off of my waist, hips, and bust. Woo, progress!  I do not expect to keep seeing nice big numbers since I'm sure a plateau is on the horizon, but I sure feel a lot better, and I'm beginning to foster a healthier relationship with food.  That all in itself is worth this journey.

Since the "high horse" incident, Jade has been telling me that I'm quiet, and more reserved than usual.  Perhaps I am.. it's not intentional, but I've been focusing almost all of my energy internally.  I need to heal. I need to challenge myself. And really, since he's decided he'd rather stand on the sidelines than coach or support me, I need to be my own rock.  The only person one can truly rely on is themselves. (Especially when I was just teased about calling this whole ordeal a journey that I am on. "Where are you going? This isn't Mordor.")

With that, I shall finish with my check-in report.

SW: 215
CW: 198 (-17)
Bust: 114 (-2)
Waist: 102 (-3)
Hips: 122 (-2)